Never give up!

It sadly looks like that my dreams want to split out in two parts. I was checking some Colleges, to be able to join with the combination Theater Art and Communication, but they don´t offer it. I think this is kind of a test. Testing my will, my heart, my guts, my courage. A bit tricky. It doesn´t mean  I´m going to quit. It´s a long tough road.
I´ve been procrastinating things, but not anymore. Quitting is not an option. Rather go for all or nothing.
I mean, of course there will be days at which I´m going to feel like crap, trash, even with low self-esteem (happened before), but then, right in that moment I have the opportunity to fight back and make the difference. "Fight hard for what you really want and go for it". I myself am my biggest enemy. When that happens to me I try to go for a long walk, do exercise or biking - to become active not passive.
It's not allowed for me to go down with my mood, so I'm trying to use my mind as instrument not to be used as an instrument of my own thoughts.
Is not permitted to give up, no more excuses. This is my dream, my life, my battle. I´m not giving up and I don't let slip the rope, no way, not a bit. If I want different results in my life I have to change some things in it. I need to keep moving, I'm still alive and ready enough to go for what I want and with a lot of effort there will be a way to achieve it for sure...

Ooh, I almost forgot it, today I learned a lesson from a kid. There was today a musical on rollerblades here in Bonn, where my siblings (German family) were performing in. One of the kids fell down really awkward, but she right away got up and back on her feet with a huge smile on her face.
A very interesting thing. After we failed in some task in our daily life we feel or even look desperate, rather than to smile back at the situation,we let those things swallow us completely. We need to be able to go back on our feet and smile. We still have a second chance to do the things right.
I believe that...and you?!

"The show the is not over till the curtains are down and the lights are off..." (X.C.)