Choices I have to make.

It is easy to give up and say fuck off everything and everybody. But the question is, Do I really want to give up? Do I really want to give up to live my dreams? When the obstacles are coming more often and the path is getting darker and darker and narrow. It is feel like there is no more option, no more light at the end of the tunnel. But from a very very deep spot of my heart, right there, right in that moment something turned on and started a real revolution in me. I started to have flash backs from all I´ve been through, all that I suffered, all that I left behind in order to follow my dreams. So giving up everything was not an option. The thing is, when we learned how to quit it easily becomes an habit. So right after I saw all this in my flash backs, my Host/big sister came into the kitchen and asked me: "Xavier, how do you feel?" - "Like I was run over by a truck.
 I just want to drop everything and stop thinking about this crappy dream and go home."
Carolina (host/big sister) was a bit mad at me, because of my bloody mood, and she said: "Well, give up is really easy. It  is the easiest way, but not  the most comfortable feeling. Everyone can just walk away, but not everyone can stand the pressure and the pain!"
I felt, that I have to do what others wouldn't do. Fight, risk, and achieve what others don´t.
Thanks to Carolina, I´m able to keep standing for what I want. She found something valuable to get enrolled in the University of my like. I still have to faith that I will get in it. I know God is with me and faith is the last thing I can loose.  No matter how hard life gets, no matter how many troubles can come across, faith and believing in yourself are the things that can make the difference.
It is a long road, but I´m pretty sure it´s worth it, and if I can find a road with no obstacles it probably doesn´t lead me anywhere.

"If it's hard and the path is full of obstacles it is because you are on the right way!" (Gabriel Bermudez)